no no. no rewind. no. no.

we've went pass the horrible him-being-a-jerk phase. the suffering suffocating getting-over-him phase. n now THIS? the seeing-him-again phase. no. i cant go thru this. i cant live my life smiling like b4 knowing he's near. he had cost me my passion to love. my will to believe. my ability to trust. he practically killed me inside. why dear God. why bring him near me again. why force me to see that face again. why put me thru this again. i havent finish the getting-over-him phase yet..

truth is. i prayed for this. truth is. i didnt think God would answer my prayer. so dear God, after this, if u think my prayer is ridiculous, please just ignore it will u? i would understand. be careful what u wish for. cuz u might just get it all.

ouh i tried the apps on facebook. these are what i got.

most painful thing

Nasihah Syahirah something painful:

1: continuously loving a person whom can never love you back

What is your heart trying to tell you?

Nasihah Syahirah amazed by how much its true:

"Sometimes you just have to smile and pretend everything is ok hold back the tears and just walk away"

funny rite.

uhh i welcome u dear. i have been grateful being under the same sky as u r. being away from u, i kept remembering myself we r under the same sky. seeing the same stars. watching the same cloud. hating the same sun.walking on the same earth. believe it or not. after all THAT. i still think of being near u for comfort. now i'll be under the same roof as u r. heh. dnt know how to react to that. just welcome. do good here. its a wonderful place. i wish ur future the very best.

please forgive me. i cant stop loving you

herehecomes:)

Bencinta :(

Benarkan ku tuk berbicara
Bicara terus ke hati mu. Hati mu
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu

lyingtomyself?:(

wish i can really say this to him..

its my life

first, maaf if entry ni hurt anybody
mase seronok mmgla seronok
but lately ni u hv been getting on my nerve
when i did nothing to hurt u
so here u go.

yelah.
aku ni xperfect.
baju kdg2 singkat.
kdg2 ketat.
kdg2 xsopan.
yelah.
aku ni xbaik.
solat ikut mood.
insaf kejap2 je.
yelah.
aku ni malas.
baju kumpul2 banyaaak baru basuh.
meje sepah.
katil xkemas.
locker pn men campak je agak2 muat.
yelah.
aku ni jakun.
suke kelua2 ronggeng.
asal free on9.
asal weekends tgk movie.
asal ade duet shopping.
malas study.
yelah.
aku xbaek cam kau.
aku xsopan all the tym.
aku xwarak cam kau.
aku xsolehah cam kau.
aku tawu kalau kau bace ni kau jwb
"memang ponn"
see I KNOW U
but u dont know me
tp this is me.
kau xsuke ke.
kau suke ke.
u can just suck it up.
sbb aku
dah lame mcm ni.
mmg mcm ni.
dan mgkin smpai ble2 mcm ni.
kalau kau rase care kau
perli
ckp pedas2
asyik bom aku je
to change me
"berdakwah"
ntahla. aku rase xbetul je.
yg aku dpt
kecik ati
nanges.
jd kau stopla eh
aku xsuke denga
n stop acting like u know everything about me.
just stop.

kandahtacing.mulutpedaslahlagi.

final exam XP

Wednesday 27/10/2010 ~ Fundamentals of Islam CTU101 9.00a.m.-11.00a.m.

Friday 29/10/2010~ Consolidating Language Skills BEL120 2.45p.m.-4.45p.m.

Thursday 4/11/2010~ Introduction to Food Retail Industry HTC130 2.15p.m.-4.15p.m.

Sunday 7/11/2010~ Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism Industry HTM130 2.15p.m.-5.15p.m.

Thursday 11/11/2010~ Fundamentals of Management MGT162 9.00a.m.-12.00p.m.

Sunday 14/11/2010~ Food Hygiene HTF110 9.00a.m.-12.00p.m.

happybantaingseyha!

seperti biasa. me the dating accompanier XD

As final exam is coming nearer n nearer, kitorg decided to go on a cuciotak trip. kate org, berenang2 dahulu, berakit2 kmudian, bershopping2 dahulu, berstudy2 kmudian. so 25/10/2010. agak2 kol 1.40p.m. sehacomel, puterimusuk n aripgila itu dok cangak dkat bus stand. agak2 30 menet, bas rapid penang 709 yg kachak berwibawa dan bakal membawak kitorg gi destinasi ronggeng ternama sunway pn datang tsengeh2. sungguh hodoh bas itu tersengih.

aktiviti2 manafaat kurang selonodnye banyak yg bjaya diaccompanished today:
~beli roti garlic tuna peveret saye yg sodappp amat
~beli tiket cte cuti2 cinta (masey kpd aripgila krn beliau yg baya)
~beli iceblended peach ngan bubble2 yg katenye rase tea tp aku rase cam dodol jek
~pusing sana pusing sini
~masuk sume kedai yg ade pintu masuk
~beli 3 baju kat F.O.S (gle kau 1 rm5, 2 rm8, 3 rm11)
~makan kfc (masey aripgila lagi. aku suke org yg bg aku makan)
~masuk toilet eheee
~beli adiah bday 4 anis (uh uhhh sgt comel!!!)
~tgk wayang! (nasik lemak 5 posen!)
~solat asar (mithali2)
~beli nasi lemak rm10 (ahahah yg ensem je paham ini)
~kne tarik gi starbucks oleh puterimusuk
~kelua. tunggu bas. masuk balik. hahaha
~beli cd n eyebrow liner (^-^)
~balek nek bas zzzz

pas magrib camtu baru ktorg balik. dlm banyak2 aktiviti tu. the best part for me is having the greatest fun enjoying the moments. ahaha. aripgila itu mmg gila. tp dy sgt baek juga ^_^. puterimusuk dan aripgila sgt comeyl~~ sehacomel selonodlahhh arini >.<

korang2,nantiajakakulaginaa=D

p/s= dammit i really2 nak buh pic. what the hell is wrong with all my electronic stuffs!!!

the question is: What do you do if someone finds your soulmate first?

soulmate saye.
someone else punye.
sedih kan.
dia never want to let me go.
saye pun.
never want him to go.
tp xboleh.
because soulmate saye.
someone else punye.

what do you do if someone finds your soulmate first?
do you let go?
do you fight?

:(

weak week mau wek2

hula~

kentut lege aku after going thru such a hecticratic week. gilelah. im alive!

week ni aje.

monday- food hygiene test (tibai puas2)

tuesday- hospitality test (bantai cukop2)

wednesday- basic culinary skill 1 PRACTICAL test (haa yg ni aku buat sngguh2) and test (belasah habis2an)

thursday- retailing test (ganyang lunyai2)

friday- ahh kau seha. jgn mlampau ah. friday tade. friday hari mate aku bcinte dgn abg N****** I**** (head to toe ye?) ahaks.

dah. mampos. naek lagi sbijik jerawat atas dagu esok nii.

ye. itulah die week aku yg kacau bilau haru biru. gilekan. lecturers zaman skang der. hati perut kecikk mcm ati ayam. haha XD (bodoh kau. final blom stat da kutuk lects)

ahh. final da nak dekat. in about 6 n a 1/2 hours agi aku akan golek2 dlm bas balik umah 4 study week (yea rite. umah. study. never gonna happen.)

stret ke shah alam dulu. ronggeng besame itu loyer cun. ahad baru jumpe itu loyer kacak, bini sama anak2 gemuknye. hee :)

then sminggu akan blalu pantas.

then FINAL. alah final bukan 2 hari. 19 hari kooot. selang nye nak jaoh2 je. tapela. i cant bear leaving uitm so fast pun..

so yea. mari beronggeng~ pastu kite setadi~ pastu kite perang~ pastu kite jmpe lagi (or kalau fingernails aku ni xlenguh2 sengal2, b4 that kte jmpe lagi)

life's been great. study's been terrific. friends r all superb. classes r over. love.. well.. watever. but im doing okay here. ngee <-- abg NI's fev super-duper-hyper-cute-bunyi2

weonygot4menetstosavetheworld!!XD