rindu. pergi.

Bila Rindu

di keheningan malam
termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yang disayang
bagai kau di depan mata
kucapai tapi tak kena
sukarnya memendam rasa
inginku luahkan kata
bila rindu
terkenang mu sayang
terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku
bila malam
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu
sentuhanmu
kurasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu
selubungi jiwa ini
bawaku dalam pelangi
melepasi batas hati ini
jauh anganku lena
kurasa kita bersama
kau bawa daku ke sana
ke alam kisah yang lama
kenangan di dalam jiwa
bila tersedar semula
di sisiku kau tiada
sukarnya kupendam rasa
inginku luahkan semua
sesungguhnya
kita mestila wujudkan
sefahaman dan hormat menghormati
ikhlas
kasih
sabar
insyaallah kita akan
bertemu semula
awan yang mencas semesta
menyampaikan pesan kesunyian dikala sendiri
kesepian yang menyelubungi hari hariku
disajikan doa doaku bila rindu
yang menanti kau datang dan pergi
seperti mimpi mimpiku
fantasiku
bukan dongeng lagi yang sayup kedengaran
di sisi cuping
di setiap corong
lorong yang lohong
benar tak bohong
bila hati menyanyi

rasarindu:(

guni beras mahu bicara dengan kotak oatmeal

dear kotak oatmeal,

xbenci. aku xbenci. even when u lied straight to my face. even when u forget all ur damn promises. even when u walked away without a word. even when u found another in less than 2 weeks. even when u humiliated me. slapped me rite in the face without even a single hand motion. aku still xbenci kau.

knape. knape aku kene terima all this shit when i did nothing to hurt u. knape u get to hate me when ur the one tearing my guts. knape u get to be mean to me when ur the one who tore me to pieces. knape u get to swear when i'm the one suffering. knape.

what. what in the world did i do to hurt u. what in hell did i say that pisses u so much. what in heaven did i write that ticked u off. what jokes i made that brought up ur rage. whatever did i do to deserve this. what. what. ape.

enough. enough of this drama. enough of this shit u put me through. enough all this talking bad about me. enough membusukkan name aku. enough menghina fizikal aku. enough memijak harga diri aku. enough trying to look bad. enough testing my patience. i've had enough of u. i've had enough.

sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry i let u approach me. i'm sorry i let u come near me. i'm sorry i let u touched my heart. i'm sorry i let myself fall in love. i'm sorry i bought ur words. i'm sorry i trusted ur promises. i'm sorry i said yes. i'm sorry i let u shred my heart. i'm sorry i let u waste ur time. i'm sorry to u. i'm sorry to myself. sorry.

stop. stop doing what ur doing. stop torchering. i want to stop doing what i'm doing. i want to stop suffering.

sincerely, guni beras

guniberas

outing "rahsia-lah-sgt" kami

Friday- 2nd of april 2010 mmg hari keramat untuk anak2 latok razak yg gila2 meroyan ini. mlm tu at about 8pm mama n baba kuar. katenye ade function tah pebende ar. nak kata openhouse, raya agama mana plak dah, nak kata knduri kawen, sapa gila sgt bsanding mlm2 ni. hurm.. ntahla. ala msti tan sri2s thingy yg biasanya tpampang dlm kad jmputan "no kids allowed" (well, in a better manner that is). tp yg penting! ape yg penting? kejeeeesameee!! yg ktorg tau function whatever-lah itu berlaku di KL. n slalunya when they klua at 8pm 4 these kinda things, diorg balik at about 11pm. wee partay~

my otak-padat sis, nobbie the petite plak baru balek that day so spt biasa ktorg buat conference dlm my now unmessedup bedroom (tp lyk i said, she's back, so get ready to messed up again my dear roomy). mesy dirasmikan YAP (yg amat pendek) nobbie the petite, dipengerusikan YAC (yg amat comel) seyha the hottie, dan disertai oleh YAB (yang amat besar) razin the huge and raziq the enourmous.

nobbie: wei, mama baba r gonna be lateee!

seyha: yea, lets sit in this room, be good and behave. (yea rite thats what i said haha)

razin n raziq: noooooooo objection objection!

nobbie: mari keluaaa

seyha: gulp. lyk.. seriouslyy?

(they went down that very minute cari kunci umah, kunci kete, O.o)

seyha: wth

the ride was thrriiiilliiiing~~ ini bukan saja 1st tym ktorg klua rumah diam2 (well actually this is not the 1st :P) but it turned out to be inila 1st tym our nobbie bwk kete at nite! (when she said this. i went from a chatterbox to mute. mute.mute.) that explains the lupa nak pakai seatbelt, lupa nak set cermin, lupa nak BAWAK DUET. haha. rite. nobbie nobbie nobbie :P

mana ktorg pegi? jap japp aku cter..

1. pkns (for what reason, we dunno. pegi sne, masuk, realised we got at most rm30, pusing seround, masuk kete balik)

2. shell ke petronas near bintang (beli 7up lemon 4 razin, ribena lemon 4 nobbie, ribena ori 4 me n teh bunge 4 ajit)

3. home amik duet haha

4. seksyen 4 beli bege otai (chicken special 4 razin, cheicken cheese 4 ajit n beef cheese 4 me)

5. skolah aku (for no reason, nobbie wanna drive more n i miss smk bbb)

6. world of pets (they got hedgehogs! i want a hedgehog! sonic undergrooound)

7. back home

then then then baba called me. then then then we see his perdana depan front gate. then then then the party's over.

baba: pi mana bawak keta mama xbagitau ni??! (he was literally screaming)

we all: ehehehe (n we're literally sengih2 lyk smelly scallops haha)

but then it was over.. believe it or not. they're not mad! diorg tekejut ktorang have the courage to do what we did n kitorg tekejut they didnt went crazy hentaming us all with belt. haha well maybe we're big enough :))

so hasilnye.. aku sgt sgt sgt excited ngan pngalaman malam pertama ini. sgt sgt sgt xsaba nak buat lagi. sgt sgt sgt syg siblings aku. sgt sgt sgt suke ble xkene marah. dan sgt sgt sgt bsyukur we're still alive (after the gen2-slash-roller-coaster ride)! thank u syg2 ku.. muaaaah

btw, ini jugak 1st tym aku xrase nak amik gamba banyak sgt haha. my excitement was more to menjerit2 dalam kete haha.

kat stall bege otai

hedgehog comel comel comel

anak2memberontakk