Wednesday, February 17, 2010

every song reminds me of u

Pnah x korang rase ni.. when every song reminds u of him/her.. every action make u think of him/her.. every place u go u see him/her.. everyday is a a flashback of him/her doing something u hate or like.. every second kills.. every word hurts.. every step is misery.. every moment u feel lonely.. empty.. and the tears never ever stop..
Everywhere- Michelle Branch
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
What hurts the most- Rascal Flatts
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
but that's not what gets me.
What hurts the most.
Was being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away.
And never knowing.
What could have been.
And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin' to do.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go but I'm doin' It
Life after you- Daughtry
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through'
Cause I know there's no life after you.
Havent met you yet- Michael Buble
I'm not surprised
not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times,
I stop keeping track.
talk myself in I
talk myself out
I get all worked up and then I let myself down.
Fight for love- Cheryl Cole
Just know that youre not in this thing alone
Theres always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like were growing apart
Lets just go back, back, back, back, back to the start
Anything thats worth having is sure enough worth fighting for
Quittings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If its worth having its worth fighting for
So sick- NeYo
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Leave me alone
Stupid love songs
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting
Do you remember- Jay Sean
Ive been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to end, we can start again
Theres nothing left to say
Dont waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If its alright with you then its alright with me
Baby lets take this time lets make new memories
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Lets bring it back (Bring it back!)
Crawl- Chris Brown
So where are you standing now?
Are you in the crowd of my faults?
Love, cant you see my hand?
I need one more chance.
We can still have it all.
So well crawltil we can walk again.
Then well run
Until were strong enough to jump.
Then well fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love.
Breakeven- The Script
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

abso-fucking-lutely in love!

I LOVE U uncle Chris Noth!!

my late SMKI column.. :(

so pada suatu pagi yg hening.. mira telah bermesej2an wimme.. and she told me bout this yearbook for smki's last year's f5 students to merepek meraban bout their 5 years studying there.. after bebincang ngan beberapa org kenamaan.. they let me join them! i was soo happy :)).. but at last xsempat keja deadline uhuhu.. so why waste it kan? just post it here, that's what blogs are for :)

SMKI- in my head, my eyes, my heart by SEYHA

I am unwritten.. Cant read my mind, I’m undefined.. I’m just beginning.. the pen’s in my hand, ending unplanned~ today is where ur book begins.. the rest is still unwritten~

Yg berusaha tuan editor, yg xberusaha tuan reader, yg dikasihi dicentai tuan member2. First of all, it’s a great honour for me to be a part of project of the year kita ni. Gotta admit, producing a magazine filled ngan stories from everyone’s eyes, ears, n heart is a magnificent ideas!  Big round of applause untuk the masterminds! Ok2 I’m about to start! Fasten ur seatbelts folks cuz we’re going to a wild ride down memory lane! As some of u dah tau, I didn’t graduate ngan ampa. So kalau ampa ex student aku ex ex student. Unfortunate doesn’t smell (translate bm kalau xpaham2), I moved to bangi in 2007 rite after PMR. Pelik camna aku tejebak ngan this yearbook? Well that’s what we call fate cam dlm cte Forest Gum tu. Yeah, life’s like a box of chocolate, u don’t know what u’ll get . U see, kejadian2 camnila yg buat aku rasa aku patot jadi novelist or penulis column dlm magazine cam Carrie Bradshaw in Sex In The City. I cannot stop babbling. Even in an article :p. ok IBRAHIM! Hmm apa yg aku can remember bout this school is I learnt here. Well duh the place is a school. But hey, what I learnt here, were more than text books got to offer. I learnt to live life n love life. Ok aunty Hallmark, pinjam kejap ur moto. Lesson number 1, “how to make friends by myself”. Haha as pathetic as it sounded, aku ni jenis malu2 arnab bila meeting manusia yg xnah knal ni. But here, I’ve made quite a number of friends. Well bila pikiaq balik, maybe I just made one and she introduced me to others but sumone once told me, it’s not important the way we get a friend, its where we take the friendship after that that counts. I’ve found the love of my life here! She’s M. ok this is not Gossip Girl so she’s Mirah. Love u to death girlfriend :*. Lesson number 2, “boys are friends not jerks” (yes I love Nemo). Sblm aku enter smki, I was in an all girls school. Jadi no guy, n I was so used to seeing girls everywhere, so bottom line, I was one of the anti-guys girls. But here, aku jmpa so many great guys. My first boyfriend is here. U know who u are so smile when u read this . Guys are actually good friends, talkers, jokers and teachers. Yap most of yg diorg ajaq tu xbeguna pn but they still do it. That’s how good they are. Ok b4 aku kna tukaq tajuk column aku ni jadi “MEN- in their heads, their eyes, their hearts”, lets continue. Lesson number 3, “party like there’s no tomorrow”. Smki was all about fun and events. Seingat aku we never ended a year without organizing at least 5 events. Ada hari guru, hari koko, then these sukan2 events cam MSSK, MSSD, MPSP ;p etc. Never in my life aku join any better hari koko in schools other than smki. Being a part of the making of the events yg plg best (esp the skipping classes part). That will definitely stick hard cam pakai gam gajah kat pala otak aku. One party sewel in 2005 masa aku klas 1a1. BEST pnyaa. Acara 1- “baling belons filled wif water” to acara 2- “siram pila ayaq amik mana pun” to acara 3-“ kek sedap + mahal looks better atas baju” to acara finale-“ sapa main ka xmain ka.. CLEAN!”. Acara last tu host dy seorg cegu yg sgt berdedikasi mengajaq sbuah kelas f3 masa kami bersewel2an di cafĂ©. Haha. Lesson number 4, “my school is wonderland”. Org salu g skolah sbb terpaksa, or nak jadi pandai, or nk lepak, or all of the above. Aku plak pi skolah to simply smile  and have fun. For the first n the last tym in my lyf, I actually enjoyed school. I hated it when its tym to head home. I hated to be parted wif my peeps, my class, even desk n chair, papan itam, tingkap, pintu, simen, dinding etc. aku ingat agi bla dpt tau yg I will not graduate ngan kwn2. Mcm kna tamparan setebal 3 inci stengah dgn speed 340km/j. N bila aku first moved here, everywhere I went its empty spaces. When ur gone, the pieces of my heart im missing u, when ur gone, the face I came to know went missing too, when ur gone all the words I need to hear to always get me thru the day, n make it ok, I miss u~ Rasa cam nasi lemak xbuh sambal, laksa xbuh bawang. Aku ingt food ja? Tukaq2. Rasa cam desperate housewives xdak bree, ugly betty xdak betty n most importantly, amirul fahmi tanpa Sheila majid ngahaha. bt of coz aku recovered immediately after seeing all the good looking guys kat bangi ni haha. I have new frens skang. Of cozla ampa ingat aku frog under coconut shell? (again, translate bm).

Okla penat ampa membaca penat lagi aku mereka. So to end this up, I wish you all the very best that lyf can offer. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Ibrahim is our school n forever it’ll be. Sumtyms u think u’ll be fine by urself cuz a dream is a wish u make all alone. Its easy to feel lyk u don’t need help bt its harder to walk on ur own. Open ur heart n believe in the gift of a friend. Someone who knows when ur lost n ur scared. there thru the highs n the lows. Sumone u cn count on, sumone who cares. besides u wherever u go. Demi lovato- a gift of a friend. ~cheese~

Nasihah Syahirah (smki 2005-2007)


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